Fairchilde has left me - I am sad and alone without her.
My life will never be the same. She has shown me worlds I never new existed, nor she knew existed.
I thought thoughts that I did not know I had.
She is the center.
Now the Lady has left, with only the aluminum triplex to travel with. I am sad. Somehow she must bring her ship back - but it is not possible. I will be alone soon, and in need of her company.
When the owls begin to cry, and the clouds roll and fall. . .
The garden won't grow because the rain doesn't fall here. I suspect it's because Lady Elaine parked her space ship above. I've asked her to move it, but she refuses. She says she still has big projects here.
Early one morning I filled my belly with Hurry-Up-Syrup, too much I think. I fell into a deep sleep.
I dreamt many things: The arrow showed me to the box under the bed that held the blue key, a key to her room. I used it, and the door opened. And when I awoke I could finally see the yellow flowers in the ditch.
The curse continues. I watch her tonite alone in a dark room I am obsessed and clearly possessed. I actually can not stop thinking about her. The television is off. The room is dark. I am here with her in my mind together at last. I can smell her later. Why is this the case. She is hidden under the kitchen floor for the future. And I cannot stop eating and spitting it back out.
My stars are out tonight. And when they are, I can't sleep. To the table I go - pour the coffee & cream, and stare.
I can't help think the lady is a part of my mind now. She is the fear born from my youth, and made alive on the television. When it was turned off I could look deep into the cyrstals on the ceiling and create her in my minds eye - breathing life into her. It can still happen.